Showing posts with label lame. Show all posts
Showing posts with label lame. Show all posts

Wednesday, August 15, 2012

I'm Lame. That's All.

Seriously, it's been over 2 months since I have posted! I promised myself I'd use this place as a vessel to vent, to celebrate, to oogle & obsess. I'm so lame.  Oh well, I guess the lack of wine in my daily diet has thrown a curve ball at my creativity...plus frankly, my energy hasn't been the greatest, nor has my patience.

That being said, here I sit, 33 weeks pregnant & about embark on a crazy journey. I have wanted to be a Mom for as far back as I can remember, though it's funny how when it's actually about to happen, you start second guessing your ability to even be a Mom. May sound weird, but I guess it's just anxiety...the thought that I am responsible for this human being for the next 18+  years, 30+ if you live in California and can't afford to move out :) Nonetheless, it's very strange mix of feelings.

Oh, and I can barely see my toes.


My view.


So why have I chosen today to post here? Not for any particular reason...maybe boredom, annoyance? Let's see, my work email is down, I can send them but not receive....and they are intermittently jack-hammering outside of my office window. Fabulous.

On a positive note, I'll only be working out of this office for the next 3 weeks! Am I going on early maternity leave? NOPE! We're going to be working from home! Sweeeeeeet. Yup, my boss decided she was sick of this office after 16 years & was ready for a change. The company is just the two of us plus an accounting lady, & though we stay busy, it's not what it used to be before the economy crashed, so essentially there is no need for the extra space.  Plus, 95% of our correspondence with clients is done via email. Aside from site inspections & nights where we have events, we can do everything from home. My boss has a full office in her home & she works from there most of the Summer anyways, as her 2 kids are in and out of camps. This isn't to stay we'd never explore the option of getting a smaller office, but she figured we'd give the home thing a shot. Oh, and I'm taking the full 12 weeks off for maternity leave starting Oct 1st (unless Baby G comes earlier than that.)  I may cut the 2nd 6 weeks of leave short & do some part time work from home (in which case she'll pay me hourly)...I really couldn't ask for a better situation, especially considering I was so upset at the prospect of leaving a 12 week old to come back in the office 5 days a week/8hrs a day.  Of course this won't come without it's challenges, but fortunately DG is off 2 days during the week & my Mom can watch the baby when I need to give certain things my utmost concentration & he's at work. I figure it will be easier in the beginning when the baby is mostly eating & sleeping... but I'll progressively need more help the older the baby gets and more interaction they require (i.e. crawling, walking etc..) But again, it's a much better scenario than being away 40+ hours a week.

Has anyone else worked from home with a baby? I welcome ALL advice.

Till next time...

And the jack-hammering just started again. FML.

XOXO J